onsdag 5 september 2007

Thailand, connecting the dots.

There is a way in which clarity eludes you when change is ever evident.

When I gather how much I am actually moving even though appearing perfectly still, it is not difficult to realize how hard it is to snapshot from a pulsating city such as Bangkok.

The only movement of myself instantly perceived by others is the physical change of surroundings, the way I move through career, income and social environment (considering that I show this in an orderly fashion) and the way my body is changed. These changes are however not at all interesting, flawed by total lack of meaning and in the end incomplete. It is the change of heart that is interesting; the change of spirit and mind. This is what we really are trying to notice about each other.
Who is he? Where is he going? What does that make of me, when I relate? It is the questions that we are trying to answer as social beings ever creating and recreating ourselves and each other. The best thing about the movement of heart, mind and soul is that it’s not, like the others, bound by the concept of time. If you move forward in this way, if you are enlightened, the potential of your movement is forever, the potential of your change is without restrictions and it is meaningful.

In the meaningful sense of the word we are thus always moving even if perceived as being absolutely still. Now the problem arises of communicating changes.


--Oh, you are going abroad for sometime, let us know what is going on!

This is a reaction from people around me when I let on that i was going to study abroad in Thailand. What I think is that people should find out what the physical changes of surroundings mean to me in the meaningful way. The change of the surroundings in itself is neither change nor movement really. The movement really occurring is the inner movement. That’s why I can never give a just picture of Thailand as a land or a culture much in the same way as I never could describe Bangkok correctly. Everything is filtered through me so it should be more fun to know what my active reflections are about all kinds of things than to read something masked as pure information about studying in Thailand.

....So to connect the dots and explain the title of my blog:
This is why the search is the constant search for enlightenment we all energetically live. It is life. The trip is the inner trip and not the physical trip to Thailand.
The reflections are what will write here during the period of time I am in Thailand (but that is not really important).

And now I have explained myself in great detail so you can understand how hard it is to write when you can not just change calmly inside. When you also have to deal with a great and pulsating Bangkok, a new country with all the new impressions through a whirlwind of people, sensations, nature and experiences. This would also explain why I waited so long with the hard work to write on my trip and systemize my reflections.

And in the end you might even understand why the first entry in my blog became one giant disclaimer... :)

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